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[Nov. 26th, 2006|08:03 pm] |
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wowsers, what a week! i love being home in the south. everything there just seems to right and natural for me. not only did i get to see friends and family, but brian and i finally got to hang out every day or night of my 10 days off. it was amazing! i'm so happy that we've been going strong for over 11 months now. it just seems unreal. thank you for everything baby! |
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| hola! |
[Sep. 5th, 2006|11:31 pm] |
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so i've been doing alot of thinking lately. i know what i want but not how to get it. maybe one day, you'll realize that i fucked up as usual. other than that, things here are great! went to the zoo on labor day. the animals are soooo cute esp. the giraffes. for some reason they always remind me of myself. maybe that's because i'm so abnormally tall. :) i've also been writing down tons of poems and lines of poems. boy does it help get things off my mind. one day i'm going to get a journal or something that i can write down my poems in without having people constantly opening it on accident. whenever i stop being so lazy, i'll actually go and get one. well i'm out. love to all. lyd |
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| Ergh! |
[Aug. 21st, 2006|07:44 pm] |
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| | Unfaithful by Rihanna | ] |
I don't know what to do.... :( |
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| Why?!? |
[Aug. 19th, 2006|05:08 pm] |
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| | Be Without You...Mary J. Blige | ] |
Just got back from England/ Paris. It was so freakin amazing! Glad to be back though. Way to much troubles because of those terrorists on the planes. Guess it's a good thing that they caught them since they were planning to bomb the planes the day I left. Just my luck... Why would anyone want to blow up a plane?!? I just don't understand... |
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| Shopping |
[Jul. 19th, 2006|04:46 pm] |
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| | Rascal Flatts! | ] |
Question of the day: Does a $2,000.00 shopping spree at the mall equal love? Does it show how you truly feel or that you just love buying me clothes??? |
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| What a couple of weeks! |
[Jun. 4th, 2006|08:16 pm] |
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Well I definitely haven't updated this thing in forever. Everything with me is going spectacular. Four weeks ago, I came home for the summer (or at least most of it). I've spent most of my time at work with my mom and dad. Dad's still trying to work on finding me a career. So far I'm either going to be a lawyer, radiologist, or an accountant although I think I'm just going to marry one of those and be a trophy wife :). I figure I might as well let him choose my career and husband since it's not like I am ever going to be able to/want to make up my own mind. After work, I've been hanging out with the guys and some of the girls that I was so close to in high school. It's great to finally hang out with everyone and catch up! Plus, the guys have decided to find me a guy that I will decide that I want to date. It's the funniest thing ever!!! Little do they know that their plan isn't going to work although I really have taking a liking to Chris. If only, if only. Beyond catching up with everyone and working, I went up and saw Hauser's graduation last weekend. Congrats Laura, Amie, Brooke, Jordan, and everyone else!!! Amie and I hung out which was definitely something that I needed to do. She is amazing, and I don't know what I would have done without her esp. over these past couple of months. Seeing Seth and Jordan also brightened my weekend. They both seem to know how to bring a smile to my face which is always nice. After I got home and went out to "celebrate" Memorial Day, I noticed that I had a present. Joe- another "friend"- sent me the most adorable bear. I have to give him props. He still wants what he can't have, and yet he keeps trying. What in the world is wrong with me?!? One day, I am going to have to settle down again, but for some reason, I just don't have the desire to go back to all of that. Well now that I have definitely bored everyone to death with another useless but random post, I hope that everyone is having an amazing summer! Have fun in NYC Brooke, and I miss you Mo!!!
Lots of love to all, Lyd |
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[Mar. 15th, 2006|04:44 pm] |
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| | the waves on the beach | ] |
Welp, I'm officially on spring break and loving it. The Bahamas are amazing, and the guys are freakin hot!! It makes me want to move here and never go back. Last night I went and gambled at the casino for the first time. I made $5.60!!! Next time I just need to figure out how I actually won money, oh well. Thought about going to the semi-state game on Saturday...still haven't decided what to do. Maybe if I go Lo and I can hang out again before school starts and classes go crazy. Oh me. At least that way I can Jake the present I got him...grr, I don't know what to do, but where is the shocker in that one. Hope you are having a blast at home Mo. I miss ya. Love to all (well almost all), Lyd |
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| My Revelations |
[Mar. 5th, 2006|05:16 pm] |
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| | We Belong Together - Mariah Carey | ] |
Well, this weekend has been simply great. I did absolutely nothing except hang out with my mom. She came up here to see the George H. W. Bush speech with me then decided she wanted to take me spring break shopping. We talked about everything while she was up here. It was so nice. She helped me realize something very important...how much I've grown up this past month. This past month I have learned more about myself than I have in the past two years. It's amazing how much you can learn when their is no one else influencing what you think and say. Therefore, I guess being single has been a huge blessing to me (something I never imagined I would have said last year). I have never truly not had someone in my life since Christmas time of my junior year, and it's past time for me to discover myself. These are just some of the things that I have learned about myself...
1. I am an incredible person. I know this is stupid, but I've had too many people throughout my life tell me the complete opposite. Just by believing this, my self-confidence has improved by like a million times.
2. I've learned what I want in a relationship. I don't want to talk to a guy two or three times a day on the phone or see them every weekend. I want time to hang out with my friends and family. I want to be able to trust a guy and have them trust me in return. I also know the type of person that I am looking for. Whenever I find them, I'll know. I know they are out there...somewhere.
3. Not everything is my fault. I say the word "sorry" way too much to people. I also take the blame on things when I am not the one that has wronged. Lately I have been standing up for myself, and boy does it feel good.
4. Friends and family are what truly matters. Boys come and go, but it's my friends and family that have been there for me no matter what. They have been the ones to show me things aren't my fault and what I have to offer the world if I just tried. I have also learned how much I truly value my friends and how stupid I have been lately in giving them up. Just talking to people who I haven't talked to in forever feels great! It's the best feeling for me!
5. I can't control everything. Just because I want something, doesn't mean it is going to happen. I can't wish to have my mom's and dad's complete respect again. I can't wish anyone to be my friend. I can't wish to be someone else. God has his plan for me, and I'm just waiting to see where he leads me.
6. God loves me. Although I've completely messed up and almost lost even my respect for myself, he still cares for me. He has shown me what to and not to do. I just need to listen to his signs and obey them. I also need to realize that I am allowed to go to church again without having to feel that I don't belong there for different reasons. I've messed up just like the person sitting next to me has messed up for their reasons.
7. I don't want a relationship! Right now being single has been the best thing that I ever could have chosen for myself. Lately, I've been hating guys telling me that they want a relationship with me because I know I don't want to be with them. I'm not ready to be with someone else emotionally and even in some ways physically (long story). Silly I know, but for some reason guys are all of a sudden wanting a relationship... probably because that's not want I am looking for (it's my luck).
Well, I know this is boring, but I'm so excited after this week. Love to all, Lyd |
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| Question! |
[Feb. 23rd, 2006|07:36 pm] |
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| | I Can Tell - 504 Boys | ] |
Ok, I know I'm probably going to sound stupid, but I wanna know something...who is O.A.R. I know they are some sort of music people and are coming to Butler's campus, but who are they? Any help would be much appreciated. Lots of love, Lyd |
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| Life... |
[Feb. 20th, 2006|07:52 pm] |
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| | you'll think of me by keith urban | ] |
Life seems to have worked its way out in my head. Don't know what happened, but all of a sudden everything seems so clear. There are some large things blocking my needs, but I'm working on making my way around them. The only thing I need right now is a basketball buddy. Mo - when are you coming back to Hope this summer? Wanna work out and shoot with me sometime? Who would have thought me sitting down and realizing what I want and don't want for the rest of my life would be so easy?!? Certainly not me! Maybe it's all of the partying that has opened my eyes to things (haha) or maybe I'm finally started to be my own person again. Now all that I need to work on is starting over in life. I need to leave behind all of my mistakes, regrets, and wrongs and become the person that I once was. I know that I can do this, but I hope to keep strong in not faltering like I once did. Well hope everyone had a great weekend like I did. Love ya lots, Lyd |
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